Things I Can't Do

I can't walk stairs without feeling faint,
My hair is falling out.
I exercise in secret now
When there's no-one about.
I can't keep saying I don't feel well
When someone offers food,
Instead I take it and hide it away
So I don't cause a feud.
I can't feel warm even in several layers,
I'm always cold these days.
My friends keep telling me to stop losing weight
But I don't care what anyone says.
I can't stand up straight without feeling light headed,
There are spots in front of my eyes;
A galaxy of pink and red and blue
Made up from all of my lies.
I can't remember what it feels like to have energy,
My life stems from a digital number.
I'm sneaky now, I hide things cleverly
But I'm not sure I like this slumber.
I can't say I don't enjoy the power,
The control that lies within;
Because I don't care about the consequences
As long as I am thin.
I can't wear tightly fitting clothes any more,
My bones are starting to show
And people will comment and stop me from losing
When I just want to lose more.
I can't stop now, I've come this far,
I must lose one more pound;
Just one more, or maybe five
Until I'm in the ground.